Z E X I O N....

mcr_rock1991 @ 2007-02-04T12:14:00

2007-02-04T12:14:14Z

I only come on for communites now.
So don't expect anything =P

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-11-16T22:32:00

2006-11-16T21:32:07Z

y'no when you think "things are gonna be great,from now on,thing'll change,and for the damn better",and then.Just as youre getting the hang of things,getting better,improving,trying harder,pusher yourself to change things.And then it turns out,all the work youve done just ends up one bif fucking lie.And your so let down by evreything,and you know you can try even harder to change things,but whats the point? if your trying so hard to change somthing and it dosn't even help,then why try agian? what if it all jsut happens agian and youre stuck on your own,with your mum and dad helping you,and your best friends leing behind youre back,and i mean,you don't know if there lying but,evreything all adds up to them lieing.So youre screwed and you can't win,and things are gonna get worse and i know,what gose around,comes around,but it feels as if this is gonna continue for so long,i guess theres always one bit of hope,things might improve,who knows,no really who fucking dose theese days? all people care about is themselves completely.All you care about is yourself,and its not as if you care about me anyway,youre so wraped up in that one bit of attention you need,you decide to drop the firends you thoguht were there for you.So don't come crawling back to me with your problems,cause ive decided i dont give a fucking damn,dammit.

I dont even know why i bother worrying about people so much,it seems as if i worry about them,and i give all my hope,and my trust indo them and they leave me,yet agian,and im not jsut saying this,but ive helped alot of people and what do i get back in return? a fcuknig punch back in the face from you.Is it beacause im not trendy enoguh for you? if it cause i do things diffrently from you? id it because,youre useing me to climb up the ladder to get more firends? jsut so you can say ''oh i have people that love me,care for me,beg for my attention" well the truth is,i dont want to follow you arround anymore like some sad little pup.I wont do it,to know im like youre pity-full little followers claimnig for your attention just beacause youre funny,tbh you DONT have problems so why are you worrying so much dammit? you have a whole fan club of people chasing for your attention,evreyone loves you,so why do you choose me? of all people to use,you know im a fucking nervous wreck,and i cant barley keep thinknig straight,but you decide to make me feel worse mhm? that's your plan,and i dont wanna be part of it.So you can take my friends,take my happiness away,but rember i trusted you,and now i know,your worthless

Hes always been the closest one to me,hes always been there,even if he is an alchoholic,even if he is a stupit idiot some times,hes the only one i can talk to me,and i know that weve got somthing stronger between us than any of my family,i dont know why,but i have such a bond with him,and ive always tried to make him porud,and to know hes so dissapointed in me,and it just,brings me down so much beacuase i want him to be pround of me,to be able to say "shes my daughter,and im so fucking proud of her" instaid of being the one who he is so disspointed in he wont look at me properly anymore,it hurts like hell.I want him to be proud of me,i want to be the one he's thankfull for,and i know his brother died just before i died and he cnhanged but,i jsut.I love him so much,i want to make him proud,i really do.

I don't know why i wrote this, cause i just feel even more shit.

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-10-27T23:02:00

2006-10-27T22:03:14Z

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-10-02T18:00:00

2006-10-02T17:01:35Z

i hate how
its
mhm
forget it.
ugh.
aybe
i just

i only need them 3,i dont need you...
and i dont need him either
dont know why i thought that
forget it.

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-09-20T16:52:00

2006-09-20T15:54:13Z

i dont want to talk to you
and when i do you jsut walk away
youre moved off my top 8 aswell.
i think you should give evreyoen a break
all you care about is yourself,
and your stupit fucking music taste
im sick of you..
you dont realise youve hrut me so much,so you can gtf =/

and you you say were close and then fuck off,youre moved aswelll,
aye fs i just
i cant put up with you for lying to me
i hate you.

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-09-12T18:42:00

2006-09-12T17:54:42Z

I s'pose evreyone pure ranty just now, and evreyone just,
Has to be there for each other i 'pose.
And i mean i cant say that cause,im going to have a rant:

I hate the fact i was used all summer,
and my whole summer was ruined ,
beacause im ''rude'' ''shy''
well duh fucks sake,its not me,and i wont change,
and ive opend my eyes to you,and ive saw what a
horrible person you are,and how you piss me off,
Just by talking,laugihng,looking ar you.
And it may be drastic,but still,reallly,
i even delted you from msn and myspace,
i despise you that much,so id rather you,
Didnt hang around near us,
dont make blunt converstaion,and just get on with it,
beacuase im not even going to make a proper effort,
cause your'e the one who should,
my cofnidence was shatterd ffor a while cause of this;
but now ive became stronger and i can stand up for myself,
i can somtimes even laugh things off.
So theres somwhat so many things
i coudl tell you,and tell you to fuck off in big words,
but i wont,cause im not that shallow and ''rude''
=]
so fuck you.

I needed that pretty muchly,but i have more =]:

you act liek your teh queen of fcuking evreyone,
and as if your the more pefect and amazing person,
no one is perfect fucks sake,
and how you can move on,and drop people
as if were all fucking flies,
so either way,i really do love you,
i mean your amazing but i jsut wish you would
stop acting liek yoru the queen.
And also;your not that much of an amazign singer
and evreyone makes you out to be,
so shut yer piehole love

So aye im all out of ranting =]
im on my old msn anoll
sake i hate msn
Merr
Hazel X

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-09-04T18:15:00

2006-09-04T17:17:10Z

well.
=]
fuck oyu.
please?
im sick of you treating me like utter shit
and im not sayign just you
most of you
thanks for not caring
and i relaise
i have no one,agian
i have no proper friends the smae age as me.
and i think ill jsut ask my mum to move me schools
fs.
ogjkhhf thanls.
i really do feel GREAT.

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-08-19T17:37:00

2006-08-19T16:39:10Z

you said if i needed help you would be there
but tbh no oen really is there anymore
only one person.
and im so fucking ill,
i have to stand and type cause sittings pure agony.

evreyone has totally just forgot.
and i dunno.
maybe its not even worth bothering anymore
jsut gettign away and never comnig back,
righti know thats pure mo as fuck but
all that i just said is true
i want to get away from here forever.

i don't even know.

Hazel x

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-08-16T18:51:00

2006-08-16T17:56:40Z

Well,
today was good igot to spend tiem with lady gee and emma
and i feel so
happy wghen im around with them and stuff.

I miss people though
like courtney alot,
she kelps me and i just need ehr like
we need to go to thee libary and all that jazz
and then.

I miss georgia,
so much.Like alot but,
but is allways the lip trembling thing where
you stop and think which i just done,
i also sighed
but im scared of whats going to happen
im scared to move on
im scared to say ''forget it hazel,forget it kid''
and i cant blaim evreyone for not saying anything
and i jsut feel so sick right now,
things are abit fucked up and,
i dont want to go on living like this
i want to move on,start somthing new,
meet new people,
but i want to go back,
to what was when i had somone,
i had a little group
but now,
its not even worth going on
i just wish,
she wouldnt lie to me,
i wish she wouldnt eb so happy
and i know theres somthing up
i know somthings going to happen
and the group is going to fall apart
like it already has started,
so i just feel so mhm.
I cant move on,
im scared,
im jsut worried.
i just wish somthing good would happpen,
So yeah...

Hazel x

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-08-07T22:05:00

2006-08-07T21:07:58Z

i miss my emma.
gah
evreyones being so stubbor nand
''OMG BEST PALSLSLSLSAWDNDFHSRHDFSSFSFS !111"2DF#HFH###''
and its annoying :[
i miss georgia aswell.
evreyones like ''oh i miss her SO much'''
howd you think i feel you twats.
UGH.
=/

its like.
i dotn want to go,
stop asking
stop saying
stop bragging
stop fucking talking to me about it
tbh,i dotn care if you haa good time.
i just
you dont care
id jsut be left myself anyway
seriously
gosh.
=[

mer
i feell iek a twat
ignore evreything i jsut said.

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-07-28T22:31:00

2006-07-28T21:33:23Z

I cant handle this
=[
i really cant
this is shiter than ive ever been
i miss her and

tis only been 3 hours
i wotn be able ot talk to her untill school starts
ill be on this 24/7

i cnat eat
evreytime ido im jsut
throwing up afterwards
this is blah.

i feel like shit shtishtihsjtithithithhtignk fh

UGGGGGGGGGGGH.
sl;sdg,xdgl;gmdfhdfhdfhmkkklsgrnmhkshbjiwowrhjiwrhsklsfn

Hazel =/

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-07-21T19:55:00

2006-07-21T18:56:31Z

it would be wrong to lie?

but you already have,so much.

what are you doing?

your gonna do it agian?

you realise your gonna have no one by your side.

not me,ill be gone,

i cant belive it. at all.

god.

flirting with him through messaging?

god.

fcukinghell.

Hazel x

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-07-18T09:21:00

2006-07-18T08:25:10Z

i feel sick,

not beacause ive been up since 4 and got up at 6.

not because my maw and dad are near splitting

not beacause my brother might be moving to austrilia

no cause,evreyoens jsut bitching abotu me now,and its like i havnt done anything and evreyone or is behind my back saying ''Hazel did this...blahblahblah''and ive not said anything at all.Its just the fact that so many of my friends think that im saying all this stuff,when really im noly saying stuff wehn tis aimed at a person who is gonne fuck up my friend.Yeah shes 12 and you just decide to go ruin it? and decide to lie to people?well serisouly im fucking annoyed and im just gonna get even more angry soon because its just going to far.And if you dare to go out with him youll have my hands around your throat very very very tightly.

So most of you,go behind my back,say what you want,beacuase irelise,your not even my friends anymore.

On a lighter note things are from great to shit and i hope evreyones happy.

Hazel x

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-07-15T20:45:00

2006-07-15T19:50:33Z

Im sick of evreyone thinking their opinions are the fucking best
Im sick of all the lies
I know whats going to happen,your gonna dump her,ask her out and shell say yes so ill be crushed yet agian.
Dose no one give a fuck on my opinion anymore?
or am i just here to be picked on?
Im sick of it.
im sick of all theese fucking fakes
im sick of the groups
im sick of people bragging about there group
i need a rant,i need emma or georiga or amy
cause tbh there the only ones that care.
yeah thanks =]
youve ruined my day, yet agian.

Something for the pain
inside me
That will never die
The pain inside me
That will never die.

-Zeromancer;;Somthing for the pain <3

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-07-14T22:27:00

2006-07-14T21:35:42Z

well i dunno
so much for evreythings going fine.
I miss her i mean i know shell be abck on sunday but i miss her like fuck and its not like id do that wtih anyone else its like i cried for 4 hours.And this fucking twat is just using her and going back to his ugly little ex who's been lying all this fucking time.I hate this now.When evreythings going okay and then evreything fucks up more than usuall.

Im meeting Rob(maybe) and jade tommorow agian.It turns out that person liked me alot and that tehy were gonan ask me out and i was like ''wtf?'' i meen gosh.I pure dunno,i meen im fucking in love with you know and then she comes along and is like,blah.

I fucking love her.I really do and i miss her more than anything.I love her personallity,the way she talks,shes pretty,and shes amazing.But i know it would never happe nso what am i doing? And were staying over in the holdiays and were gonan be going into town aswell.I dunno im pure happy with it,and i cant belive it but i realyl do love her,seriosuly....

ive been getting ZERO sleeep and its getting bad cause i can barley move im that tired.And i hate it.Ive also hate an obsession with cutting things liek socks and stuff =P hahahaahhahaha.

Hazel x

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-07-09T00:45:00

2006-07-08T23:48:33Z

ZIGGY PLAYED GUITAR.

yeah so im happy
lifes going good
i miss georgia
i love my hair as
i dotn need to wash it like.
cause teh greasier it is the better itll look.
im happy with life and feel happy beacause
evreyones getting along.
i feel great
i feel as if lfies turned up
i dont want things to be like that ever agian
i love somone more than anything
and i cant get them otu my mind
as there 54364384354384 miles away
spitting on somone =P
i love her...

lifes amazing.
i cant wait till georgias back.

Hazel x

FAKEFAKEFAKE

2006-07-02T19:59:43Z

Your so fucking fake one minute its ''i hate people who post x442346873184 post's on picture comments'' then yo ugo do it.
then there the other one whos like ''oh aye shedont thins blahblah'' now shes ALL over her fucks sake.
your a lying little whore
you aswell,
fucknig hell.

Me and emma went walkies tonight talked about a queer man and evil people like.
it was really fun.

getting my hair cutt,short and reallyrealyl spikeh soon

And i already miss gerogia.Shes goen nwo and its pure shite.I hope shes okay.I hope shes hacing fun like.God...
=[ theese two weeks are gonna be shite

Hazel x

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-07-01T22:16:00

2006-07-01T21:17:47Z

im gonna miss her so much,

im crying so much,

were tlaking abotu running away,

were tlaknig about not going naywhere,

where tlaknig abotu being best friends forever

shes gonigo n holiday for 2 weeks and were fucknig crying so much,

i dont want her to go,

i already feel empty withotu her..

>_< =[

Hazel x

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-06-27T20:17:00

2006-06-27T19:18:44Z

''if you keep your nager in soon youll end up having to go to counslling,and taking it out on yoruself more than already.If somone annoys you tell them,dont hide it in''
Thats what the doctor said
thats what im going to do.

Hazel.

p.s thanks for being a shit friend =]

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-06-25T15:10:00

2006-06-25T14:14:23Z

Thanks btw,

this is aimed at most people not just one
Thansk for being there and saying ''oh aye ill be there''
and then next day go out and y'no forget i excist.
thanks.
it really did make me smile to know i actually have some really shit friends
seriously.
i dont care about you nkow
i see you and what you do.
and you know,
somtimes i dont call you a friend

im become more anit-soial as it gose by and serisouly,
this dosnt help,
the docters didnt help,
teh school nurse never helped
and when i rely on you,
you go tell somone and then i become
''the girl whos a fucknig emo''

so shutup.
i dont care.
spread rumors
leave me out
beacuase the only person that actually helps me theese days is either
courtnry,darren,emma and georiga

truth is one isnt bothering right now so why should i bother?
god.

Hazel

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-06-11T10:47:00

2006-06-11T09:48:53Z

seriously.
whats with lying to me?
and sayignt hings that youll never keep.

I missed you then i poened my eyes and saw what i lier you are,and how yo unever do anything with me,im never invited but thats not whats bothering me,its the fact you think you can be so amazing and your not okay?,i dont care anymore,you lie,and im sick of it.

ooft.

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-06-10T09:54:00

2006-06-10T08:56:05Z

ive got a diary now,
its just beacuase i dont want some people reading my stuff.
ill only show to one person.
that one person knows who she is.

I wis things wernt so fucked for other people,
i want to be here more,
i want to lose soem friends
i want to meet som new.

but mostly?
~~i want emma to be happy~~

Hazel x

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-05-28T19:11:00

2006-05-28T18:18:32Z

so this i gonna bet he real lj thing,
last one was random but haha.

OVERTHEMOONMUCH.LOL.
so.
ive never had so much fun in thej past week or 2,
i feel as if i actualyl have somone wh o ican tal kto all teh tiem and tell things and wotn bitch about me behind my back.
and it makes me happy.
things are shit,things where shite but now
now i can actually be normal and actually be fucking happy
i dont need to pretend to be somone when im around tthem.

things last night i was upset,now i mnot infactim really happy its over beacuase
my mum even said i was shite when that happend and things where terrible when i got upset
and now its like good for her too cause
shes liek really depressed and shit lately and with me being upset she gets upset and no ones happy.
its the best to know my maws gonna be happy and me
and being with them is great too.

them is obv,i meen its ovf georgia but i love all you still.
I somtimes think that maybe its for the best i dotn go with her,
but then agian its never that
we dotn need to pretend
we dont need actual conversation

Rage agianst the machine are immense,
calm like a bomb,ignite,ignite,ignite

so yeah im happy,
evreyone clsoe is happy
thats all that matters to me.

Hahahhaaaa

2006-05-28T18:11:29Z

so ahppy
tommorow will eb great =D!

i feel rejected by a bit
but mhm
i think
i take a step away for mti all.
and tbh;;

IM SO HAPPY LLOLOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
I DOTN GIVE A FUCK LOLOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL =]

mcr_rock1991 @ 2006-05-27T23:55:00

2006-05-27T22:55:26Z

today was oaky

end was good

but endendend was bad

yah.

platforms are sore.